點解…

尋日見supervisor, 因為, 無論幾傷心都好, 個presentation都一定要做. 唔係為左自己, 係為左唔好影衰個supervisor. 佢同我講, o個份我日日都做得好辛苦既report, o個份令我冇左個女朋友既report, 佢俾左個A我. 本來我應該好開心, 但我竟然對住佢發火係咁鬧, 話「department根本唔俾人有自己生活, 日日都做死人. 呢份report我係為我女朋友而努力, 而家佢離開左我, 你俾個A我有屎用?」

成世人都未同任何人咁樣發過脾氣…我諗我而家真係好大問題…睇完psychology therapist之後, 佢話對我飲酒, 唔食野同唔訓覺既問題好擔心, 叫我去睇睇醫生, 睇下佢有咩安眠藥之類既野俾我食.我好驚, 第一, 一睇左psychiatrist 之後就冇得返轉頭, 個file成世跟住你; 第二, 我怕佢真係開左呢d藥俾我之後, 我會有個自殺既工具. 所以, 我真係唔敢去.
已經冇食野成60個鐘. 係正常人都一定會肚餓, 係屋企搵野食. 但係, 我真係一d胃口都冇. 以前食野係一種必需品, 肚餓既感覺好辛苦. 但係, 而家, 食野就好似係一種選擇. 可以選擇唔食野, 肚餓既感覺, 只要唔理佢, disconnect佢, 咁就會消失. 而家先知道, 原來要食野, 心情係好重要既.
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Posted on June 10, 2009, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. stop torturing yourself…

  2. 快d食野喇!!!!! 你咁樣唔得架!!!

  3. Re: MatthewI’m not sure….Re: BEEI’m not even doing this deliberately…it just happens…I can’t even feel hunger anymore. My stomach stopped telling me that it needs food, so I guess it doesn’t.Re: GloriaAgain…I’m not deliberately stopping from eating. Last time Victoria “dumped” me I was upset but no way was it to this extend….I truly believe this girl is the one..and I don’t think I can find the capacity in my heart to love anyone else anymore…

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