Monthly Archives: June 2009

假若可以的話, 我想遠走高飛, 離開倫敦, 離開香港.

這兩個城市, 每一個地方, 每一個角落, 
都充滿了我們美好的回憶
每次重回這些地方, 心都會很痛
回想起以往的人與事
桃花依舊, 人面全非
假若可以去一個新的地方, 重新開始
亦未嘗不是一件好事
可是, 我有能力離開嗎?
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I told you I’d leave a light on
In case you ever wanted to come back home
You smiled and said you appreciate the gesture
I took your every word to heart
‘Cause I can’t stand us being apart
And just to show how much I really miss ya

Every light in the house is on
The backyard’s bright as the crack of dawn
Thr front walk looks like runway lights
It’s kinda like noon in the dead of night
Every light in the house is on
Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone
Every light in the house is on

If I should ever start forgetting
I’ll turn the lights off one by one
So you can see that I agree it’s over
But until then I want you to know
If you look south, you’ll see a glow
That’s me waiting at home each night to hold ya

Every light in the house is on
The backyard’s bright as the crack of dawn
Thr front walk looks like runway lights
It’s kinda like noon in the dead of night
Every light in the house is on
Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone
Every light in the house is on

好好戀愛

Alex:共你相識三千天 我沒名無姓 
慶幸也與你逛過 那一段旅程 
曾是日夜期待你 施捨一點同情 
我對你是固執 做夢或太熱情 

Stephy:在世上 是你始終不肯退後遺忘我 感激你心意 
但情人比 知己分開更易 怕我愛上你壞了事 

Alex:完了吧 如無意外 從今開始該好好戀愛 
放下從前一段感情 才能追求將來 你就似沒存在 

Stephy:完了吧 然而你不在 情況未像幻想般變改 
告別從前總是不易 原來假如只得我在 
我竟未能覓尋下一位摯愛 

Alex:舊訊息應該刪走 再沒留憑證 
我共你去到最遠 也只是友情 
如現實是場玩笑 一早清楚內情 
過去是勇敢 或是未肯適應 

Stephy:是我笨 大概必須先經錯誤才能會 分清我心意 
共行成長 數不清的故事 
我已愛上你壞了事 (Alex:我愛你你扮作不知) 

Alex:完了吧 如無意外 (Stephy:應該散開 縱有感慨) 
從今開始該好好戀愛 (Stephy:為何我寂寞不來) 

Alex:放下從前一段感情 才能追求將來 你就似沒存在 (Stephy:當做我沒存在) 

Stephy:完了吧 仍能撐起來 (Alex:應該放開 縱有感慨) 
前進便讓自尊心放開 (Alex:期望你能尋覓愛) 

Stephy:告別從前總是不易 然而假如不止你在 (Alex:只得我在) 

Stephy:你可願仍逗留在這愛海 (Alex:再不願盲目留在這愛海) 

Alex:我與你 大概始終不能相愛 

Stephy:可否不離開 講出你的感慨 
你用心戀愛 (Alex:我用心戀愛) 

合唱:下段道路定更精彩 

Alex:完了吧 如無意外 曾失戀的都必須戀愛 

Stephy:悔恨從前隱瞞感情 常常猜疑將來 我就似沒存在 (Alex:你就似沒存在) 

合唱:完了吧 仍能撐起來 前進便讓自尊心放開 

Stephy:告別從前總是不易 然而假如不止你在 (Alex:告別從前總是不易 然而假如只得我在) 

Stephy:你可願留下來盼一位摯愛 (Alex:我怎樣來覓尋下一位摯愛)

Ellie, 好對唔住, 我愛你, 請再愛我一次…

今朝搞到成6點鐘先勉強訓左4個幾鐘…結果我發夢又見到Ellie…唔單只清醒既時候諗起佢,連發夢都見到佢.我夢見佢而家個男朋友呃佢,我就陪Ellie傾計…其實同佢傾計不嬲都好容易,而家就難過登天,要發夢自做到…天呀點解你要咁對我…我已經身心疲憊,我就黎頂唔順啦!!

今晚又失眠…徐子雯,你知道嗎? 冇左你既日子,每一分每一秒都掛住你…我個心仲係好痛好痛,呢三個禮拜以黎冇一日好過…究竟要點先可以重新得到你既愛…?那怕只係一分鐘, 一秒鐘都好…我好辛苦呀…忘記唔到你,亦放低唔到你…你對我實在太重要啦……..如果真係有神,天真係有眼,點要咁樣玩我折磨我….越黎越討厭呢個世界,唔想再留係度獻世…

今日屋企人話上深圳食餐飯….唉….又係唔開心左成日…

上次上去都半年前, 係christmas holiday o個陣, 我仲同Ellie一齊….我一返到香港仲即刻sms佢….
好辛苦呀….每日都係咁過…..雖然好多朋友話我要move on, 搵過第2個對象, 搵個岩我既女仔, 但係….真係好愛佢…..唔知可以做d咩…
我有試過同第2 d女仔傾計, send sms, 但係…..唔知呀….我咁做, 好似搵人做水泡咁…對其他人好唔公平….我想對其他女仔好d, 因為我心入面仲好想對我前度女友好, 而家冇得咁做就唯有對第d女仔好….越黎越覺得自己衰…..真係唔知應該點…..第d女仔都係好女仔, 唔應該搵人做替身/水泡……..唉….
好辛苦……………………….明知Ellie唔會返黎, 但係….又好想等, 又知唔應該等, 又想搵個對我好d既女仔, 但又知自己未必可以對佢一樣咁好…..

請即時了結我的生命. 現在的生命太痛苦了

生命太長了. 誰來給我一個痛快的解脫? 
我討厭失戀
我討厭上帝
我討厭生存

返左香港…
實在冇辦法忘記佢
佢點鬧我,點討厭我,點憎我都好
我都一樣咁愛佢
今日係我地拍拖11個月,個心特別酸…

早排睇丁佢同新歡既相….心情好複雜…
一方面, 真係好耐冇見佢笑得咁開心, 知道佢離開左我之後既日子開心, 其實已經好滿足
一方面, 見到而家既佢, 係外表上已經唔再係一個細路女, 著衫大個左…
大個左之後就同另一個一齊, 著住我同佢買既衫….好似幫他人作嫁衣裳咁…..個心好好好唔舒服….
如果之前o個幾個月, 我對佢好d…而家暑期陪佢既就係我…..
而家……………唉………返左黎香港又點呀….有咩意思…..本身諗住留返最後一個暑假
都冇用啦….
點解一個人傷心, 可以傷咁耐一d都冇好過…

I thought I was ready for a long term relationship.

I thought I was ready for someone to be permanently in my life.
I thought I was ready to offer my partner a perfect married life.
I thought I was a nice guy.
I thought the world was cheerful and colourful.
I was wrong.
I am back in square one.
I am back in where I was a year ago.
No, I am so far behind where I was.
At least a year ago, I was still ready to love someone.